Yup, It's warm enough for popcicles.
The lovely artwork Kenzie made for me.
But February is when things started to shake up a bit. 2 days into it, I found myself on a VERY unexpected trip to Utah, that, when I left I thought was going to be permanent. I was debating whether or not to state the reason for this “trip” because it is a little personal, but because this blog is my journal, I didn’t want to hold back. I hope its ok with the Waller’s. Here’s what happened:
The day started normal & I got the girls ready and off to school, I wasn’t feeling the best but I was trying to shake it off. Jayson, who has been going to the gym every morning and then straight to work, came home because he had hurt his neck while at the gym. After an hour or so of working, I wasn’t feeling any better so I decided to tell Liz and take the rest of the day off. I had been in my room for a while and was just about to lie down to watch a movie when I got a call from Liz. I answered, thinking she was just calling to ask if I could come down for a minute and help with the kids. But that wasn’t the case. What she said next broke my heart. She said “I know this is crazy but Jayson and I are fighting and I am going to move out. I don’t want you to be in the middle of this so I am booking you a flight home in the next few hours, so pack what you can & I will send the rest to you later.” I was in shock. Just a few moments ago my life was just a regular day, now I was about to be shipped home unexpectedly, have no job, and worst of all not get to say goodbye to Hannah and Kenzie because they were in school. I called my mom to tell her I would be coming home and burst into tears. After talking to her I began packing my bag. It was one of the most depressing times of my life.
Once I had packed all I could, no more than 30 minutes later, I took my bag downstairs loaded it into the car and off to the airport we went. This was really happening, I couldn’t believe it. Liz & I tried to make small talk, but it wasn’t working out very well because we were both so upset. Most of the car ride was quiet. When we finally got to the airport, we both hugged, started bawling and I remember muttering “this isn’t how it’s supposed to happen”. It wasn’t. I was that weird person who is in the airport crying all by myself, but I didn’t care. Soon I was on a flight home. The whole flight my body wasn’t sure what to do. Should I be excited that I get to see my family? Should I burst out crying again because I already miss the Waller’s so much? Finally I just went numb. I had a layover in Phoenix, where a voicemail from Kenzie and Londyn came through saying how much they missed me. I cried some more. There was also a message from Liz saying how sorry she was & that she had been crying since I left &that they made a huge mistake & that if when I got to Utah and wanted to come back “Please do”. I couldn’t respond, it was just too much, so I just got on the flight to SLC. I got to see my family & it was great, but inside I was just hurting. Should I go back? Or should I stay? My body just couldn’t handle it. I still couldn’t respond to her message. I had no idea what to do, of course I missed them but could I put myself through going back? When I finally responded I expressed how upset I was and that I needed to take the weekend to figure things out. So I spent an entire weekend stressing about what to do. I talked to my family, prayed, did some self-searching & finally I did make a decision: I was going back!!
They booked a ticket back for me for the next Tuesday. So I tried to make the best of my trip home, viewing it as just an extra & free trip to see the fam. Since it was such short notice, I didn’t have much planned to do so it was a pretty relaxed trip, did some baking, relaxing, seen “The Vow”, took Aydri to the park, made valentine cookies, had a super bowl party, & went to dinner with the parents. I said my goodbyes and got ready to head back to NC. On Monday night I kept having chills and heat flashes and severe body aches. I thought it must have been the stress, so I got up early and my mom took me to the airport. As a joke, I had texted Liz that I had been not feeling well the night before, & to bring some doctors masks when she picked me up. Mom & I were running slightly behind schedule but I wasn’t too worried, until I was waiting in the security line and all the airport workers kept butting ahead of me & I heard my name over the intercom to come to the gate. Long story short I missed my flight,they were pulling the walkway away from the plane as I ran up.
This was how I felt. Right at that moment, Liz called in response to my message & told me to move my flight to when I was better in case I was sick and she didn’t want me to give it to everyone else. Well I didn’t have much choice since I missed my flight :)I called my sweet mom and asked her nicely to come back to get from the airport yet again. So I got in the car, my bag on its way east, and went home. As the day went on I just got sicker, talk about blessing in disguise! It would have sucked to fly while I was that sick. I had a high fever, body aches, chills & sweats, no appetite and a fever rash all over my chest. Sucky! The doctor said it wasn’t the flu, just some other mean virus. 
This is how I felt too. I waited it out and when I was finally feeling better, I got another flight out that Sunday. When I finally did get back, It really hit me how short of time I have left here! I am trying to make the absolute best of it! We have been doing all sorts of fun things like making our own bouncy balls, gummies & Chap Stick, growing wheat grass, flower pens, picnicking etc etc. The following Tuesday was Valentine’s Day, & boy oh boy did we have deliveries to the house ALL day!! Chocolates, berries, flowers, fruit flowers, and balloons, you name it. 
Christian is obsessed with Toy Story!! What other way to win him over on Valentines day besides Woody? 
Kenzie & Lon eating their edible arrangement. While Jayson & Liz enjoyed a night out me and the girls enjoyed the night in making chocolate dipped strawberries and heart shaped mini pizzas. The love could be felt! I even had a valentine myself…. 
Isn’t he a keeper? The other day he ran up & hugged me and said “Mine” He loves me :D Tat-om he calls me. Boy I will miss them it really is time for me to go home. Oh & he even has some major dance moves, who doesn’t love a boy who can dance? Check it out :]This week, Jayson has been out of town & all of us left at home got a little bored so we headed out to Lazy 5 ranch, a drive through ranch where you have buckets of food & feed all sorts of crazy animals like creeper ostriches, giant hissing geese, hungry llamas, cute piggies, longhorn cows, deer & even zebras, giraffes and rhino!!! It was awesome! I don’t know who had more fun, me or the kids. But I won’t lie I got a little scared. OK a lot scared. You would be to if a giant buffalo who is very capable of charging you, stuck his HUGE head in your window and stole your bucket of food. Despite being scared I had a very fun time!
Londie-Lou on my lap
I just HAVE to take a minute to say congratulations to my fabulous, overachieving grandma! Do you know what she did? She FINALLY retired!! We are all so happy for her & thank her for all her years serving as a nurse. Enjoy retirement!!
This pic serves two purposes, one of my grams for her retirement & one for my mamasita's b-day! & my auntie is just a fabulous extra ;)
Lastly, I would like to give a birthday shout out to none other than my awesome mom!! I love and miss her immensely!!! I hope she had a fantastic birthday turning “45” again :/ Your secret is safe with me mama :D I love you!!!
